First Kiss

It was exactly 19 years ago today that David and I kissed for the first time. We were dating for 3 months by that time. We were odd compared to others around us. Our relationship has always been different than anyone I know. He was my very best friend long before we became a couple. We were both "outsiders". We didn't fit in the normal crowd, so by natural selection (devine intervention) we had a tendacey to hang out together.

We talked. That is what we did. At church we talked. At get togethers we talked. At hayrides we talked. For six months, every opprotunity we had, we talked. That was a big deal for me. I didn't talk to anyone. I was private. I never let anyone in.....until David. That was sheerly by accident. Thank God for accidents... or really devine appointments.

The kiss. It was inevetable. Partly because I initiated it and he wasn't going to turn me down. We were in the cave at sixflags over Texas. I was sitting in front of him leaned back against his chest. He had his cheek against mine. We road that ride 7 times that day. The cave smelled like mildew. For years afterwards, everytime I smelled mildew, my heart would skip a beat with excitement.

Most importantly he is still my best friend. I just enjoy being with him so much.

I forgot until this evening that this was our kiss anniversary. He was working out of town today and not supposed to come back for a few days. He surprised me and came home tonight. He is such a hopeless romantic. or just hopeless ;-)


First Kiss revisited:
I have been pondering the subject of this blog entry since I posted it. I wanted to elaborated on the nature of our relationship.

The day of our first kiss, I have to tell you that I felt safer with David than I have ever felt in my life anywhere, at anytime. God knew exactly what I needed when he gave me the man of my dreams. He knew how damaged I was. He knew how I had been hurt. He knew how private I was and how had built walls around me to protect myself. And He knew how I needed to be approached to feel ok with a realationship.

When I kissed David that day, I let him into my heart. I tore down a little of the wall that I was using to protect me. I thank God everyday for the gift He gave me in David and I thank God everyday that He protected me in my ignorance knowing I didn't have the since to protect myself from kissing someone I didn't know I was going to marry. I am so thankful that the only person I ever kissed was the man I eventually married and will spend the rest of my life with.